Wow, how G-Dep [flashback to the ‘Special Delivery’ track of yesteryear] is that? Adventures in Urban Mysticism is more or less abbreviated as AUM. Coincidence? I think not. More like synchronicity. And I didn’t even plan it… SWEET!
Doh, where was I [weren’t you writing something]? Doh!
I get asked very often, “how are you doing?” to which my reply these days is:
“Crazy!!!” or “Crazy.” if I’m tired.
And it’s been a great response because it makes people stop for a moment. Think about it. How often do we go through the motions and say vanilla, cut, and dry statements like “good!” when we aren’t really good?
Another one I say often is “Okay.” because I believe it’s always okay due to how everything fits as a system but either way, how ever I am feeling, I’m being honest…
My life has been crazy! In a good way. It’s been exciting, fulfilling, challenging, heart-warming, as well as frustrating. It’s all pretty balanced in that I’m getting a little bit of everything. Doesn’t mean it’s not crazy nor do I view crazy as a bad thing.
For example, my new job is quickly becoming a brand new television series in the way it’s unfolding. I love the people, I love the vibe, I love the location, and I suppose I have to say I love the drama because for some reason it’s there, it’s unfolding. It’s fun, it’s exciting. It can be irritating but when I get there, I just get in the zone like I’m tuning into another episode and I choose to embrace having an episodic type of day!
It’s cool because the dance with devil that I was having towards the end of the last year is diminishing. There’s still the dark and everything, I know that, but I feel my protection so I do not feel afraid like I did for so long. A friend told me, you were never afraid. I may have never been afraid spiritually, but in real life, I was afraid, afraid of all sorts of things. That’s a big theme that from small kid time I remember being so afraid. A former mentor told me that I had absorbed it from my mother, the fear of my family being psychically transferred when I was born.
I don’t know if that’s true nor is there any way to prove or refute it but I do know that for a very long time, I was so very afraid. And I don’t feel that so much. I’m not Daredevil, the Man Without Fear, (or is that The Black Panther?) but I find ways to move past it because I accept it.
Is it hard? Yes it is. But hard isn’t a bad thing in life and many times, oftentimes, overcoming a challenge is quite fulfilling.
“But Why?” I get asked that alot too. I don’t know. I’d like to but that’s not how life works. Life more gives us exactly what we need and deserve when it is needed and deserved.
So one day at a time, I enjoy this Adventure in Urban Mysticism, the Redux that it is, because it’s what I asked for…
To enjoy life, however it is, and to find a way to have an adventure wherever I was without feeling like I need to escape my life.
Or to be mindful. Be present. Not too happy, not too sad. Just to be.
Aloha ke Akua.
~The Story of L.O.C.O. coming soon…