“Then spake Jesus again unto them, saying , I am the light of the world: he that followeth me shall not walk in darkness, but shall have the light of life.” John 8:12
An important part of the game in Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu is transitioning between moves. I have often heard it said the Journey begins once one attains a Black Belt in the art. In reflecting upon Life, I see that like the martial art, training to transition in Life takes place in every moment, and the learning and perfecting of Living is an admirable pursuit.
I am filled with many questions. As I write today, the questions I ask are different takes, look through a changed perspective than those I asked in the past. I openly question myself and wonder what is my Art.
Writing is considered an Art but I don’t think it is my Art. It’s just something that I have been told to do, told that I would do, and despite my attempts at ‘retirement’ or to put to rest the inquisitive search and exploration that takes place in writing, it is in the end just something that I do.
In starting a new job recently, as a Marketing Director at an Arts Company of all things, I find myself learning and enjoying more about business. Yet, in the end, as fun as it is, I do not yet know if it’s my art, or yet another step.
I find myself asking God questions. I am truly grateful to be where I am for the worries that I have today pale in comparison to the worries I had in the past and wished to move past for days on end some times in the past. Yet, when I brush away the dust that inevitably collects, there I am, forced once more to gaze even more deeply into my Soul.
I was told by a mentor that the work does end until it does. I truly believe that what happens, happens for a reason and each experience is something to walk through. I feel more alive than I ever have, yet I still have it, that thirst, that nudge that the Universe is vaster, greater, and that I have not arrived.
I think back to writing about how I did in fact arrive in AUM Vol. 1. While maybe I did arrive symbolically to the moment, just like in Jiu-Jitsu, the Journey in the Now has only just begun. And as I learn to transition a bit more gracefully than I have in the past, the learning still causes pain, still causes its share of challenges.
As I accept this about Life, refocus myself to keep moving, pray for the good, and pray during the bad, I can only trust that God knows exactly what is going on. That my joys, my fears are all One, and just different shades of the same shadow.
I do not doubt that yet I am unsure how to share it so I retreat and write for only in doing this work, do I offer anything the least artistic. And I guess that’s what you get when you believe, a very different picture painted through you than what the mundane would have you believe.
Since that is what is unfolding, it is okay. It has to be because it is what is going on. And though I know I can make a choice, change on a dime, I have learned all too well that Life has its own course for change and that I just have to go with the Flow for the greatest secret is that as much as we each are living, the Truth is, we are merely watching an Act that has already been scripted.
Ain’t that some ish? The Path is already laid, we merely need to follow it, Flow with Go, as Rickson Gracie, Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu legend said.
Jesus walked his Path, the Buddha accepted Life as it was without question, and in that, Heaven/Nirvana was always be found. If we follow the lead of both, not the Life but how they lived it, then perhaps we too can find the same, not knowing what should come next rather, but find the Love that is God, Light, the Creator, the Eternal Spirit, in all that we encounter.
All of this has been echoed for generations and used as ways to explain the phenomenon of Nature and Life. Yet still questions come up… Perhaps because as long as One is a unique expression of the Spirit, there is not only work to do, but ways in which we can be expressed through.
That can be beautiful if you think about it…