Drop the Mic – Ep. 10 – Despite All My Rage

“The world is a vampire, sent to drain

Secret destroyers, hold you up to the flames
And what do I get, for my pain?
Betrayed desires, and a piece of the game”

from Bullet with Butterfly Wings  by The Smashing Pumpkins

I can’t explain how our intuition works or consciousness for that matter.  There are some admirable hypotheses that I’ve pondered over the years and ‘theories’ abound always, but I truly believe the explanation will never be articulated in human words.  

Truth is only felt.

With business and in my position, I have to participate in the game just as much as those around me.  I truly do take the time and energy to put myself in other people’s shoes.  I choose my words wisely, work on my tone of voice, apologize when necessary and sometimes just to help ease others.  

Where I filter in my professional Life and allow the written expression to Flow unheeded when I’m creating outside of it, it’s almost opposite with a great many other people.  That right there is quite perplexing and challenging for me.  It makes me feel as though I need to be two when I’m striving for Oneness

Despite my attempts at approaching the experiences of Life with Conscious Vibes, the world can come across from time to time as a energy vampire killing that vibe.

As much as some people share a public persona that is open and collaborative, behind-the-scenes they aren’t very open or interested in collaboration if the venture is not self-serving at all.

That can be discouraging to say the least…

Roll Kendrick Lamar: Bish don’t kill my vibe… Repeat x2

In the past, I fed the beast of Rage within when encountering such experiences.  Though I do believe Anger can be powerful and has a place when used appropriately, I don’t find myself giving into Rage.

I also don’t feel stuck like a Rat in a Cage but situations do get to me. My feelings remind me of my humanity and if that’s the only reason for negative encounters and shitty people, I can live with that because in the end, always remember…

This Life is beautiful!


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