“What made you so positive?” The Lyft Driver asked me.
It caught me off guard because I really haven’t felt like this in a long, time. Almost five years to be exact. It was five years ago, as I sat beneath a Tree, ‘divining’ for others if you will, filled with so much rage and some folks walked in describing how peaceful they felt being there with me.
“Were you always like this?”
At the time, I was dumbfounded. As I wrote about it later, I realized that I was allowing the rage that I felt to be there, not resisting it, not letting it build and manifest. In doing so, I was at peace because it was exactly how I felt and the people around me felt that peace.
Today I don’t feel any rage nor do I feel awesome, but I am okay with that. I’m actually feel like I am hurting quite a bit right now, but I am okay with that too. As odd as it sounds, I’m okay that I don’t really feel okay.
I’m not fighting the events of life or how I feel as a result of those experiences. Fighting and righteous anger have a time and place. Just not right now, not with the weight of these emotions that I am dealing with.
As I’ve journeyed through Life, I’ve gotten lost many times. Definitely strayed from the Path. Despite that, I truly believe that there is a silver lining in everything.
Sunsets really are beautiful, you know? And there will be a new day to follow each and every time. Even if you sleep in and skip the Sunrise, there are so many amazing and truly “awesome” occurrences in Life through each & every moment.
It’s just The Dark Night of the Soul.
It’s that bish, that’s the tough bit.
But ya know, diamonds are forged under pressure so I trust, as hard as it is, Nature has a better plan than my Ego Mind. My Heart Mind knows this even though Life gets confusing and certainly overwhelming, I trust that being in God’s Hands is a good place to be.
#AlohaHarder man. That’s my meditation. That’s how I got to have my slant. I guess that’s the answer. It’s finding peace, through really going into Love, all its expressions, shapes, forms, facets, everything.