“Woke her up around one, she couldn’t hesitate to call Ice Cube the top gun.”
~ Ice Cube, It Was a Good Day
Woke up about 6:45am actually. And it wasn’t because anyone was there. But I share this because it ties in nicely to how today started off a good day and how it has continued. Well, every day is a good day, but here’s the story to how this episode of J. Wading Through the Stream, aka The Conscious Dream Being Woke, began…
Having recently moved, I’m adapting to a new routine and exploring my new neighborhood. Today’s adventure included the necessity to do laundry!
I know what you’re thinking:
TBH, I actually enjoy doing laundry, especially at laundromats. It reminds me of travel because I travel light and as a result have to do laundry on every trip. I also play a game in my mind thinking of each time I do laundry as a check-point, or save location, in the video game that is my Life, honoring the completed missions since the last time I washed them boxers (and gis, so many boxers, quite a few gis). Today’s check-point was located near a small cafe, appropriately named Mirage Art Gallery and Cafe, on the other side of Palolo Valley, where the Journey has placed me for this season.
The only parking space available was in front of Mirage and immediately looking at the place, I had a feeling that it was to be a magical space. The decor and ambiance was flavored with the cultures of The Middle East, with inspired pieces of Art all around. As I looked at the menu, I saw there was an Open Mic held there, along with options for Book Clubs and Groups to meet. I smiled at the little wink, perhaps another nod on this Path I find myself on.
Speaking of nods and winks, just yesterday, I received an email from a gentleman in India, who is reading, my first book, Adventures in Urban Mysticism (AUM) Vol. 1.
Our Brother on the Journey shared some very heart-felt words about his own experience. I was blown away and still am because it made feel so small to put what I’ve experienced into words, sharing my Journey as it unfolds, what I learn, then finding out that it has resonance and touched a Life across the world.
That smallness continued at Mirage as the young barista there shared with me that he left his home in Compton to come to school out here. He is compelled to serve and give back to the youth and on Faith, nothing else but Faith, left home and his Life has been working itself out here. As I listened to him, I thought of Adya, my teacher, and the first time she told me these words:
You’re on the Journey into knowing who you really are.
As we talked, I shared a few thoughts and smiled within because in hindsight, this process of discovery and feeling fuller and further how much the depth of God’s Love is, and how at time I’ve been such a sh!t, yet still, there’s so much Love, and my Life continues to get better and better.
It is taught in some circles that God hates things like sin but truly, if God is Love, there is no hate. Sin, hell, these are spaces where we are not with God. The only times we are like that are when we are out of alignment, questioning what’s unfolding, not trusting that this Journey is taking us home. The Spirit speaks through our Intuition and if we follow the Invisible Threads of Spirit, we will KNOW the realness of Love all around.
That sounds all good and well, right? It’s inspirational perhaps, maybe even stirs the Heart but… BUT, BUT, BUT!
Yes, I know the world around us is in tatters. I don’t read or watch much news but I peruse headlines daily. I also observe the world wherever I am and witness the micro-system of my Life and feel such reverence for this. And that’s the thing.
The world is also in awe.
If we want there to be less tatters we must free ourselves from judgments and Let Go.
It is time we Let Go and Let Love. It’s the only way we’ll elevate as a collective. Until then, those of us who walk in and with Light must be who we are, full authentic expression of the Spirit, Alive in Truth, for when the Light is taken into the Darkness, a few things happen:
The Darkness is no longer that scary. The Darkness provides great contrast to the Light and is in fact quite beautiful. The Darkness is understood.
Cause when we shine Light in the Dark, we can see.
The next time you ‘sin’ or ‘err’ and start to judge or wonder why did that happen, what was I thinking, yada yada blah, take a breath and remind yourself:
I am Love. I am Beloved. God Loves Me Exactly as I Am.
If you are Love and Beloved even in those moments of what in the eff, and start to feel that Love exactly as you are, watch what is revealed and how you start to view your Life.
Everything on this Journey is about knowing who you are, yes, just as Adya told me. But let me expand that and say that as much as it is about knowing who you are, it’s about knowing what you aren’t.
No matter what unfolds, You aren’t a failure. A scrub. A bitch. A piece of sh!t.
You aren’t worthless. You aren’t unloved. You aren’t alone.
Most of All, You aren’t evil.
You are a Human + Being.
You are a Child of God and while we might ‘sin’ or ‘err’ from time to time, all of that is so we go deeper into The Arms of The Creator. It’s a part of The Plan, your Life, your Path, is already mapped! I pray, I hope, I send Love that whoever reads these can go so deep on the Journey, they feel moved to tears by that Sacred Love we can be given when we walk with Belief.
My laundry finished up and I asked my new homie to pray with me. We gave each other a pound, and he told, Bro, I feel so good. I don’t get to talk so deep like this.
I am always a bit taken back by that. Am I that out there, that it’s different for such conversation? I live for this! Whatever the case, I am grateful for the exchanges and also take it as, the World is ready.
We are ready.
We can rise up. And we are meant to rise up for when Christ went as deep as He did, He paved the Path that we can follow because of the examples that exist in the symbols of His Journey.
The Path has times where we have to stand up, like He did in the Synagogue.
Times where we need to be alone, often much of that time alone in prayer, as is referenced frequently in Scripture.
Times where we feed everyone because we can through Love.
And times where we feel as though, ‘My God, my God. Why have you forsaken me?’
Every curve in Life is a piece to the puzzle into Knowing you are a Beloved Child of God, God is Love, and Love, Love got this.
I went my way feeling Light, feeling clean (I washed my boxers yo!), and excited for the new-new I’m walk into. If there’s one thing that’s for certain, this Journey is guaranteed to give you back your deposit and more than you could ever dream.
Love answers Prayers!